Day 6: Uncertainty

It’s All About Timing

Today was a busy day. Lots of topics to dissect and pick apart. Lots of things to plan for the upcoming months. I definitely cannot say that my job is boring in any way.

More often than not, I’ve found that timing is key for anything, whether something is planned or unplanned. Some things just have a way of working themselves out. Granted, the moments leading up to it can feel incredibly stressful, as if the weight of each and every decision gets heavier. For most decisions, I actually don’t think they’re as crucial or as important as we may think. However, there are certain decisions that can truly alter the trajectory of something. Actually, I’m less concerned about the trajectory change, but more about the reduced possibility of rolling back / undoing / trying a different approach. I make this observation / conclusion with convenient 20-20 hindsight.

The honest truth is that you never know how something will pan out. Sitting in the back of my mind is an existential argument between Luck and Resilience. I won’t disturb them for now, but soon, I’d like to poke them.

The German Countryside

I’m in love with the German countryside. Today’s weather was beautiful — sunny, bright blue skies with a slightly warmer temperature (not super warm, but better than yesterday). The rolling green fields are so tempting to trace out while driving, but I need to be careful to not get distracted.

I’m going to enjoy road-tripping around country over the next few weekends. I’m not sure where I’m going to go yet, but if the weather holds up, I’ll be happy.

Getting High

I went rock climbing tonight in Reutlingen with some co-workers for the first time in many years. My forearms were screaming after getting onto the wall for the first time. As I climbed higher, my nerves kicked in. I realized I hadn’t been this high off the ground in some time. Fear came over me pretty quickly. I kept abandoning the route each time. But I would try to get higher than the previous attempt. Eventually, I made it to the top. After making it to the top on the first route, my nerves relaxed, but my arms needed a break. It felt good to move my body after almost a week. After warming up, the next routes were much easier to handle, mentally and somewhat physically.

I felt relief and happiness as I made it to the top. I was nervous and fearful all the way up. Stopping and retrying, I built my confidence slowly. The nerves still lingered each time, but I felt more comfortable embracing them with each movement up the wall. It was a challenge I didn’t expect to have today, but it was worth pushing through it to make it to the top.

I’m happy I went.

Frieden und Liebe ❤️ (translation: peace and love)